July 16, 1975 - September 15, 2013
I never met Laine. She was a friend of a friend. I may not have seen the world in the same light as she did. I may not have been able to believe as passionately as she did. But I can truly appreciate her fervor and dedication to her ideals. And I would have liked to have had her as a friend. I know too many people who are afraid. Laine was not afraid. Not till the end. She wrote her testament as it appears below. How long before her demise I don’t know.
I BELIEVE that the most important part of life is
forgiveness and that if we had that everything
would simply become alive again.
I care nothing for material wealth.
I BELIEVE in complete benevolence.
I BELIEVE that trust is all that matters.
I BELIEVE that pride will cripple the entire world.
I BELIEVE that everything organic is completely and
totally alive and aware of all existence.
I BELIEVE that David killed Goliath with one stone.
I BELIEVE that Jesus Christ was risen from the dead.
I BELIEVE that I am just as black as I am white.
I BELIEVE that every single bird of the air deserves as
much oxygen as I do.
I BELIEVE in love at first sight. I BELIEVE in one love.
I BELIEVE in a savior.
I BELIEVE that I would be living on the streets if I did
not have others to look out for. The roof over
my head is for them, not me. I am not alone in
this world. I have peace. I experienced my
deepest peace the first time I realized
that I had nothing.
I BELIEVE I have received the Holy Spirit.
I BELIEVE that I have become one with God.
I BELIEVE that I am a sinner and that this world is
absolutely crushing me because
I cannot stand to see it.
I have seen fish made into enough to feed four.
I have witnessed devils and I have seen angels.
I know that I am human and that everything that is
wrong in this world seeks to destroy
my spirit, soul, and mind.
I BELIEVE that I am just like you.
I BELIEVE that I have committed every sin in my heart,
I BELIEVE that blood was shed for me.
I BELIEVE that I receive grace that does not belong to me.
I BELIEVE that everyone should be included and that no
one is ugly nor stupid or fat.
I BELIEVE in the truth and I believe that
everyone should experience it.
For reasons unknown, Laine took her own life
this past September 15th.
She quieted her body, but not her soul.