Wednesday, December 24, 2014
by Rev. Lou Kavar Ph.D.
It was quite unexpected. Her mother fell on a patch of ice the week before Thanksgiving. The broken hip was a concern, but following surgery she was admitted to rehab. It seemed as though all was well. But then there were complications. She died about a week ago. The family gathered for the funeral on the Saturday before Christmas.
Three adult sons are living with their mother. One had spent time in jail for a drug related offense. Another, well….the neighbors said that he was “a bit slow.” The third left a failed marriage. They were trying to get by on mother’s social security and working various jobs in big box stores and fast food restaurants. They were good neighbors and helped others, including doing yard work for those who due to age couldn’t keep up with the work. Just last week, the notice went up on the front door: the bank was going to foreclose on the mortgage. What would be next for them?
I met for coffee with a man I know. In his 40’s, he’s a successful business man … and white. His wife, working in government, is African-American. They have two teenage boys nearing adulthood. While the boys are mixed race, most people identify them as African-American. The man tells me that he’s afraid for his sons. “What will happen if they are in the wrong place at the wrong time? What if they have a run-in with the police? I don’t know how to help them.” Yes, it’s a problem Black parents face, but this white man finds himself confused and troubled on how to sort out his own experience of “white privilege” while being a good parent to young African-American teenage boys.
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Friday, December 5, 2014
by David Griffin
A Christmas Symbol You Can’t Buy
A Christmas story from Monk In The Cellar, the novel about eleven destitute monks in a decrepit old monastery in New York State. Through a strange set of circumstances, Brother Jesse finds his way to the Internet and writes a tell-all blog.
It’s after compline now and I’ve come down here to the cellar as I like to do late at night. Just to be with my thoughts. I spent the afternoon working with Brother Winifred, who we call Kickstart. We all have nicknames for each other, and his comes from his motorcycle days.
I feel badly for Kick. He is unsure of his vocation, writhing in an agony of indecision. I'm not sure he has a true calling to this life. He may have only an attraction to its different-ness. I can't tell him whether he is called to it. He either is or he isn't. If I could give Kickstart the answers he seeks, I would surely do so. But it turns out we can never give people what they truly need. We can only listen to them. Sometimes we can help them hear what lies deep inside them.
On my first Christmas away from home after joining the Ardent Brothers as a young man, I was assigned to a Retreat House in New Jersey and was serving on a 4-day Retreat for retired nuns … 40 of them! When my little travel alarm went off at 5:00 on Christmas morning, I woke up in my cell-like room in the dark.
I thought back to all the times as a boy I had come awake on this day, sure that a surprise gift or two waited for me under a glorious tree festooned with colored lights. There would be no tree or gift this morning and I felt lonely and rather sad, even at age 24. I switched on the lamp and beneath it on the bedside table sat a small box wrapped in Christmas paper. Opening it, I discovered a pine cone, round and open with square woody sprigs sprouting out. The touches of pine sap had dried to a white frosting, making it very Christmas-like. It was beautiful. It was wonderful. I’ve kept it for years.
The pine cone is an ancient symbol of enlightenment and no doubt one of the nuns believed I was in need of a good measure of it I laughed to myself. She was probably right.
A half hour later I stood next to an old priest on the altar as he said Mass and I functioned as the altar server. I looked out at the forty women in their religious habits and saw one who might have been the oldest smiling at me. She was beaming and her hand gave me a little wave.
Later at breakfast, I spoke to her. “Thank you so much for the pine cone. Why did you do that for me?”
“You’re the youngest here,” she said. “You would miss Christmas presents the most.”
I was embarrassed. “I guess I’ll get over it someday,” I said.
“Oh, you needn’t rush,” she said. “Embrace that longing you have for a gift from under the Christmas tree. Feel it and let it remind you that something deeper in you is longing for Him."
“Longing for a Christmas present and longing for God are not the same,” I said.
“Are you sure?” She laughed. “Don't be so holy. Let your desires show you what your soul already knows to be true."
"I'm not sure I know what I want," I said.
"You will know when you listen," she said.
When I listened, I found strength to live by, and coincidentally the meaning of Christmas. It is Emmanuel, the name that means He is with us. There is someone who walks the path by our side throughout our lives, who shows himself at the oddest times through a variety of people. It turns out our salvation is worked out among our friends and neighbors. And all we need to do is what that little sign tells us … the one we often see at this time of year hanging in a store, a bar, an office, a dorm room or a home. It explains everything in one word, "Believe." It's all we need if we want to see miracles happen all around us.
You know, I can't give Kickstart his faith. But I can give him a symbol and pray that he listens. I can give him my pine cone.
Listen and you will hear what’s inside you..
Believe and He will be with you..
Emmanuel. Merry Christmas!
Copyright 2014, David Griffin